Jennifer’s Recovery Story

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Jennifer’s Recovery Story

“I was in a black hole. It’s hard to describe for people who haven’t been there, but it was just blackness. My drug of choice was meth and I was actively addicted for 9 years. It was every day, day in and day out.”

Jennifer’s struggle with addiction began as self-medication. She began using it as a means to cope following a highly traumatic event, convinced she needed drugs and alcohol to function. 

“Once you’re on meth, you can hardly function without it. It got so ingrained in my everyday life that it was what I woke up to. I thought it was helping me put one foot in front of the other because I had a lot of trauma that caused my addiction. I never thought I would be able to function without it. I thought I would be so tired, that the depression would be so much worse.”

After nearly a decade of substance use and family tragedy including the loss of two brothers to overdose, Jennifer felt completely out of options. Though she attempted to get help multiple times over the years, financial constraints left her with few choices. As many experience, turning to government-funded treatment meant becoming just another number in a faceless crowd. Despite their best efforts, the recovery specialists she encountered through these outpatient programs were stretched too thin to provide the help she needed. 

Then, desperate and terrified of what the future held if she continued on the path of active addiction, Jennifer found Golden Peak Recovery. Here she encountered a caring and attentive staff for the first time. While now she looks back on their efforts fondly and with appreciation, she admits to being resistant at first.

“When I went to Golden Peak Recovery, the first week was hard. In detox all I wanted to do was sleep. They tried to get me out of bed but I could barely get up to go to the restroom. But after about seven days with the medication that I was getting, I started feeling better and getting my energy back. I never thought I would have energy without meth; I was scared to death.”

Experiencing these first life improvements in recovery weren’t enough on their own. Homesick and untrusting of a treatment process that hadn’t worked before, Jennifer nearly gave up then and there. Thankfully our staff, many of whom are also in recovery, were able to help her refocus on her goals and overcome the hurdles of early recovery.

“The staff there is amazing, they’re so knowledgeable. Just being able to relate to the staff and really build a one-on-one relationship with them is great. They didn’t just let me walk out the door. I’m from Oklahoma, I really didn’t have a game plan in place. The staff really came together and just helped me through it and got me to a place where I was comfortable to stay.”

Another big thing for me was being able to talk to my dad on FaceTime. We lost my mom about a year ago and I was living with him before I came to Golden Peak Recovery, so it was very important to me to be able to see him and vice versa. I was kind of his rock even though I didn’t have much to give because I was so low.”

It was that conversation that helped solidify Jennifer’s commitment to recovery. Just a week into the process, her father would comment to another family member that he could already see major changes. 

“He told my sister-in-law that he couldn’t believe the change that had already happened in such a short period of time. Because I was smiling. If I had just called him over the phone he wouldn’t have believed it. I’d been in such a dark place for such a long time that when I looked in the mirror and smiled it didn’t look right. I just didn’t smile anymore, I was so broken. I didn’t think it was going to be possible to feel good — ever. I felt bad all the time. Just using and having to use and thinking it was helping me, in my mindset, to put one foot in front of the other.”

Now, after completing treatment at Golden Peak Recovery and rediscovering joy and happiness for herself, Jennifer shares her own message of hope for others who were once in her shoes.

“I would just like to say that there’s hope. That you might not think that you’re ever going to get out of it, but you can. At Golden Peak Recovery the staff is there to help. I once thought I would never get out of it either. But you’ve got to put in the effort, you’ve got to want to do it and it’s possible. It’s possible.”

If you’re ready to take that first step with Golden Peak Recovery, or you know someone who may need our help, please call xxx-xxx-xxxx. 

 

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